counting down

i like counting down cos it gives me something to look forward to.
the light at the end of the tunnel enables me to continue to trudge on in hard circumstances and gives me strength to persevere on.
hope. :)

things i am looking forward to:
2 days time. last job interview
6 days time. lil sis arriving :)
8 days time. last day of work
9 days time. surfing!
13 days time. singapore! with the people i love!
15 days time. Christmas
18 days time. Japan (&with a great pal)
22 days time. New Year
?? days time. Jesus coming again

of course there are heapsa things in between. but these will be the highlights of my forthcoming days. :) am sOoOOo excited! so book in quick if you want to see me in spore! hehehee...

will have a reflective/thanksgiving post coming up soon i reckon. man it's december. i prob say this every year but. where has the year gone? :d growing old rapidlyrapidly... yawn-snoozeeeee....

my worst fears confirmed

ok so it's true.
i'll be out of work in about 3 weeks.
he did the unthinkable in my world.
cos in my world. you don't do things like tat.
you just don't.

and you have no idea wat i'm talking about.
then you read my apathetic post.
was so upset.
haven't been so upset in very long.
hate this feeling of being judas-ed.
but like this sturdy faith that arises and helps me bounce back

budaowong ah budaowong
appreciating you my rock who helps me stand firm
you prop me up on all sides when my world crumbles
you fight my battles for me and all i have to do is be silent
thank you

o help me to forgive him
help me to keep shining, bright and clear
i rest in you.