uncertainty

it actually has been pretty emotionally draining past few months. i guess the thing about human interactions sometimes is that it takes alot out of you-- and of course the lack of sleep doesn't help any.

our 3rd and final housemate returned to brisbane yesterday and its great! (now the mystery of delayed hot water has been finally solved) yet realisation descends that this transient 3angle will dissipate in about a week when g returns to spore for a holiday. ah well.. sads

so i've been thinking-- if you saw something, or if you knew something was not quite right, would you have the guts to just say what you have to say? and be man (or woman) enough to face the consequences? would you even bother to speak up? or are you the type to kinda just duck in and hide in your little cosy corner, watching the world go by? ah. perhaps you know what you would WANT to do. but would you really?

ALSO i really want to THANK GOD for the results of the mock gamsat on sat. cos for the first time i actually quite enjoyed an exam! which is quite retarded considering it's a really tough one. like i felt bit overwhelmed after section one but yea, God saw me through and i actually had fun writing essays etc. then like i didn't even know how many sections there were. which was kinda like bad but yea. i did ok. so THANK GOD! :) heeheeheee... only hope that the real thing will be as smooth (OR BETTER!) :)

if only... i think at the moment what i really need is. wisdom and the discernment and ability to apply knowledge appropriately. i really need more of Him. to fill my cup to the top with running water. o the source of all my delight. so please keep praying like you always do.