evangel

today was the first time this year i shared my faith to someone i've never shared with before. the result? a lingering uneasiness.

there's a look that pierces the soul and i've only seen it twice. a transparent glare that's masked by an innocent comment. a darkness that i can't describe.

she sincerely believes she belongs to light (the good side). that she has psychic powers and can talk to dead people and spirits. she believes in god and Jesus Christ but not that he is the only way. she doesn't like the bible but knows bits and pieces which she uses to try to knock me (&my beliefs) back. don't get me wrong. she's a nice lady. middle-aged, opinionated but kind-hearted. strong in character and the dominant alpha-type-female. but she's so wrong about so many things and isn't open to the truth. she performs reiki and deals with the absorption and transference of people's energy. she claims to commune with the other world and fights against satan. in her 'travels' to the other world, she says hell is a big foggy darkness. she says it's scary cos it's so dark that you can't even see your hand in front of you. i like her as a person. but i find her other side scary.

and i tried... i prayed for wisdom and i tried to rationalize with her regarding the sin of man and grace of God and that the only way to God is through Jesus Christ. and she understands what i believe but she doesn't want to touch it as it is my belief and not hers (postmodernism). yet i feel uneasy. is it ok to just tell her the truth and leave her believing that hers is still is? she believes some... just not the whole thing. what i else can i do but pray? and i'm curious too. i'm curious to know more about this mysticism/tribally-belief she's into. but at the same time i don't want to know more lest i stumble myself. i pray that i will be an effective witness- that i will not be influenced but influence. that i will stand firm...

'he who is in me is greater than he tat is in the world'. i will not be afraid. emmanuel.